Oh yeah! This thursday eve at 6pm is the artist reception for the AIMAE show. This is a show that exhibits small artworks that are mailed in from anywhere in the world! I am half excited about it, but mostly nervous, because Granville Island is so heavily touristed. I mean, it's so busy there that it can be hard to stick around for too long. Luckily, there are some nice, quiet ocean spots to rest and watch the kelp. And there's an art supply store that usually isn't too bad. And a gem store. And a lot of ice cream. Because it's a random weekday, unfortunately, I might have to go it alone, and I don't do well on Granville Island alone. Wish me luck.
And if you're in the area, come check it out! Finally, something you can do on Granville Island for free :D
May lost its charm pretty quick! Things feel a little bit like walking through a thick sludge, these days. It's probably a regular thing for humans, to worry about nothing no matter what. I should be grateful. Should I be grateful? Should I feel like I'm working enough? Should I feel like I'm working too much? Should I feel like a lazy slob? Who knows!
Mermay is still in progress, but perhaps only because I feel obligated to do so? Maybe I have abandoned sunday youtube videos, maybe not. Maybe I will get the hang of my day job, or maybe I'm just getting used to the management style. I feel like a bag of loose change being sorted in a machine that doesn't quite work right.
There is a severe detachment happening.
This month's patreon theme is food! I have not purchased as much snacks/exotic fruit as I thought I might (and maybe that's a good thing??). There's still nearly half a month left to pick up the pace! It's kind of fun to do a watercolour study every month, and I guess the challenge of that is to twist it in SOME way to integrate some different process to keep it fresh.
This week I am FINALLY starting this intimidating commission. Why is it intimidating? I don't know! I'm doing this one fairly large because it is a generous commission and I want to put everything I've got into it. It's not like I haven't painted this exact garden before. It's not like I've never painted cats before. It's not like I don't have OODLES OF TIME these days in which to do it!
Savour these moments. Even if the moment itself seems so precarious and lonely.
I know I just did a whole ATC thing, but the idea of doing tiny mermaggies for Mermay2018 was irresistible. Mermaids is such a trend these days, and it hasn't really tempted me much until now. I'm posting these daily on instagram (so far), and will do a weekly round up on youtube.
My current mood for May: really, it's my favourite seasonal month of the year so I've been psyched. However, I have also learned that it is considered a "depression" season, which is really surprising! At least in my location, it has nice weather, wonderful floral scents, extremely looonnnggg days.
Admittedly, I feel like crap in the psychology department. So what else is new? I have a long history of feeling worthless which will never go away (don't we all), and this combination of
A: having a lot of days off all of a sudden
B: making no money in a world that values money over everything else
C: feeling unfit and scared in a new part time job full of passionate leader-types and ending each shift on a downbeat of failure
Has been a real damn drag. My personal philosophy is that feelings come and go and that when I feel like this, it's just a matter of waiting it out.
(though sometimes waiting it out turns into staying at a bad job for 9 years and having zero memory of my entire 20s so maybe don't trust me, heh)
In other news, on Patreon we are doing FOOD! for May's sketching theme. I can't imagine not injecting colour into food drawings though, so we'll see how it goes. Might as well since I've got all of this time. Come practice tasty snacks with us!
Hello! I'm Melissa, and here you'll find some behind-the-scenes footage of an artful life. Won't you join me?