When I paint with watercolours, I have to tape the papers down with masking tape. Usually, I tape them down to a hardcover book. It's actually a gorgeous book filled with Hundertwasser's work. He is a man who clearly adored colour, who liked to transform boring, grey cityscapes into whimsical dreamscapes.
I flipped through the book again for inspiration, and decided to play with solid blocks of saturated acrylic colour. The result looks nothing like the inspiration, but I could never create anything as amazing as Hundertwasser!
I am hoping for an awesome week! Maybe some fireworks, maybe some pride parades... prepping for the blueberry festival artwalk! We are supposed to bring a display easel, and the one that's sitting in our hallway now is extremely DIY and very old. I hope I can find a way to perfect it before saturday.
We also bought white paint for our kitchen... 0_0
No painting supplies, but the paint is here. It's like... semi-commitment.
I may never grow tired of these art journals. Everything about them is perfect (for me). Perfect pages for lots of wet paint and glues, perfect size that fits easily in any bag/purse, perfect shape, flexible binding (it's not spiral but I can bend it anyway)...
Perfect for balancing on my knee with my markers and watersoluble crayons. You know, those days when I can't peel myself off of the couch. Might be a red wine and classic x-files kind of night.
Today Milo played in the bathtub, which eases my mind. He also ate his entire breakfast today! Eventually. I arrive home and this cat comes tearing around the corner, his claws digging into the carpet, his eyes begging for dinner, and I relax.
Now if only he would eat his dinner!
Yay, a journal post. I am so incredibly stressed out I feel physically ill. A "surprise" day off from work can be the opposite of relaxing sometimes.
But I have a secret plan to get my cat Milo to stop starving himself, a plan my vet would probably dislike. Oh well. I can't just let him die, so...
I bought a small can of "urinary health" cat food. I took a small smidgen of it, added water to make a thin soup, then mixed it into some of the awful Hills S/O and it totally worked. I doubt that it will work for very long or for actual meals (he is too damn smart), but I am desperate to break his hunger strike!
Looking on the side of the can, I don't really know what makes it "urinary health formula". I don't know what makes any of the "prescription" (they're not really prescription, that's just a buzzword) foods different other than reducing the nutritional value and adding acidifiers. This is why I'm so mad.
So I am de-stressing by playing in my art journal to angry music. It doesn't really help that much, but it's better than nothing I guess.
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Today we went to the Honeybee Festival and watched someone extract honey. There was also a bee beard! I tried a root beer flavoured honey stick and it was pretty good! I'm not an avid honey eater, so the sticky texture was a bit... uncomfortable. Kind of reminded me of cough syrup, except it actually tasted good.
And then I came home and got to work putting together this journal!
My cat is pretty much all I can think about this week! He came home on thursday in a bad way; it's obvious that he couldn't sleep for the two days he was at the hospital.
For every second of my free time I've been researching online, looking for preventative action against his blockages! There is a lot of heresay that the dry kibble diet is causing this horrorshow, and while a canned diet is awfully expensive (though less extreme than raw diet), I feel like we have no other choice.
I am caught between following our less-than-steller vet's advice of putting him on a terrible (and dry) diet of Hills C/D, or doing something that might actually MAKE SENSE. I'm so overwhelmed with information that I can't seem to make a decision.
In the meantime, I painted a portrait of Milo while he was gone and recorded it for you guys. It's shocking the empty void he seems to leave when he isn't here!
A super simple journal page today. I like the look of simple pages and today I'm just not feeling it. We had another cat emergency today and I just couldn't focus. All I could do was follow him around the house and watch.
He has chronic urinary tract issues and luckily it's been nearly a year since the last blockage. But today he was in a lot of trouble so I had to pick up my partner from work (for emotional support) and take him into emergency to get a catheter put in. It's been irritatingly expensive. This really makes me wish I could make more money!
I was so pumped about being able to go wherever I wanted without worrying about dragging stuff onto the public transportation system that I just had to go out and buy paper for more journals.
And I've been thinking about applying for another late-year craft fair, so it would be nice to have something to take there.
Seemingly the most difficult word to say to somebody.
Do you ever say "no"?
Or are you submissive like me?
Do you take on all sorts of big projects at last minute?
Do you go out when you'd rather stay home?
Do you start daily challenges but you never finish?
Do you cancel your special plans because someone begged you to take their shift at work?
Do you feed your friend's cats or house-sit for your aunt just so they don't think you're careless?
Do you feel easily stressed and overwhelmed and automatically blame everyone else for taking advantage of you?
Well, I usually do.
I said "no" today. I didn't even have a Reasonable Excuse. I just said "no" because my problem is that people get too comfortable with me. I'm always there, (seemingly) ready and willing for anything.
But today I practiced saying "no". It was incredibly uncomfortable and I agonized over it afterwards, but the world didn't end. And no one was nearly as upset as I was (from the guilt). And the best part is, I end up happier this way. It's when I am obedient... that's when I'm truly miserable.
A lady named Raina recently said to me:
"Once you make up your mind to be better, you will be. You have not been chosen to be a loser, you are choosing it. Convince yourself that you are a winner! You are just as great as the people you know. You CAN be doing what they are doing. Or what ever you love. Just accept that you are capable and stop making excuses."
Perhaps saying "no" is the first stage of a whole new me? There is a lot that we can all take out of that piece of advice, especially the idea that:
We are not less worthy of love than anyone else.
We have more control than we think.
We don't always have to do the things we hate to do.
Do you make sacrifices all to often? Does saying "no" come easily to you?
This week I feel like I've got my boxing gloves on. There are some days where it feels like I'm wading against a strong current, and the only thing keeping me forward is one small goal. Just one. One that seems so obvious and reasonable to me, that it's hard to believe that I have to fight upstream just to get there.
There is a subtle pattern in my life in which I give and work hard for the reputation of being loyal and reliable, only to become so convenient that I end up taken for granted. Then one day I make a simple request, get a taste of it for about two weeks only to be pushed back down to square one all over again. It is difficult for me because I was raised to be obedient with a guilt complex.
But maybe you are in a situation where you just want this simple thing, and someone or something is trying to hold you back, or trying to block your path or trying to guilt-trip you into walking away. And maybe all you need is a little boost, after all, the easiest way to keep someone down is to make them believe that they are unreasonable and wrong.
If this is you...
Fight. Fight big or fight small. Say "no" if you have to. Stand your ground and defend yourself, because you do not automatically deserve less just because you are female/male/old/young/gay/straight/anything else!
This post probably doesn't make sense to anyone else, but I just felt like I needed a little pep talk today. I hope this works.
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