So where the heck have I been, am I right??? I mean... I've been posting videos on time, I built some new art journals/sketchbooks for the shop. I may even have tweeted at some point. But I wasn't really "here". I wasn't present, I wasn't connected, I was so far away that it was a bit like being a mere shell of a person. Too afraid to do much of anything. Too overwhelmed by my one annual social obligation.
I was wrong when I thought I'd built myself up long enough (9 years) to leave the isolation of a restaurant kitchen for the isolation of a retail backroom. It's not isolated enough. I think my new job exposes myself to much more general hostility, negativity and public exposure than I had originally expected.
I'm not handling it well.
But at least the horrible holiday season is through, and three days into the new year, I'm almost caught up to day one. Hi! So this is 2017. How's it going. I just got here. I'm so behind. But there is so much we can get up to! <3
I've fallen out slightly from sketchbooking, but when I have no ideas, I can always turn to my cats for inspiration. I'm going to come off as SUCH a cat lady, but cats switch poses so many times during their grooming/napping sessions that I can fill a page in a very short amount of time. They don't hold still for very long, so they make for very challenging models.
I'm waiting for Purolator to come around with the purple camera, so I will have no excuse not to vlog. There is a lot of fear in vlogging: fear of physical criticism (but I'm too old to care about that), fear of safety, public embarrassment, but also a fear of boring the heck out of you. I digest artist vlogs regularly. Yet the imposter syndrome is active and kicking. I don't know if it's best to continue tacking clips onto the ends of the usual videos (too random??) or if I should just upload something randomly, once a week. Or never. So tempting to back out on this.
Most people seem to make new vlog channels which makes total sense, but that calls for unnecessary steps, and I'm more into efficiency. Welcoming opinions, here!
Another thing I wanted to do, is to reboot the 365 daily photography project. Ugh, I know I keep leaving this thing on life support but I love looking back on the truly random, mundane photos. Stuff that I would easily have forgotten otherwise. The above photo is today's. (Turns out that all of my spouse's Lego is a bunch of 1980s space sets). Of course, I'm already technically "behind". But what's different, is that if Purolator actually gets it together, I'll soon have a tiny pocket-sized camera I can take anywhere. My hefty DSLR is the reason why I don't take photos anymore. No excuse now! Also, I'm back to legit "part-time" at the day job so my days hopefully won't be totally absorbed by stuff that I can't actually publicize or talk about. Finally, I'm using a calendar, to fill up with the daily pictures so if I don't want a ton of blank spaces, I have to take a picture.
I might share them here occasionally (like this^), but otherwise don't have a public outlet for that. Twitter? Facebook? Maybe. I don't want to clutter art feeds with non-art things. Too lazy to make seperate accounts for stuff. Meh.
So. Other than that, I haven't done my 2016 review yet (SO BEHIND) but there are a few things I'm interested in. For example: now that I've got some weekdays off I'd like to get back into livestreaming (perhaps this Thursday?). I still have much of a pack of papers to turn into sketchbooks. Vlogging sounds awful, but I'm prepared to try it if people are interested. I need to reapply myself to traditional art hubs - like putting together at least one gallery proposal. Gag!
I will probably not do monthly newsletters anymore.
I also want to do more voiceover type things instead of the usual old soundtrack rut. Recording my voice has gotten easier already! So feel free to throw me some questions so I can have something to yak about.
It's gonna be an interesting year, I can feel it.
Hello! I'm Melissa, and here you'll find some behind-the-scenes footage of an artful life. Won't you join me?