I haven't quit, but sometimes it feels like it. This past month was mostly about working through anxiety and I guess, being a martyr? I always put the day job first, which must seem insane from the outside. This act of doing for not much reason other than "I suppose I should, because this is what society prefers." It's very hard to start a new job, especially one with such a sink-or-swim kind of style. It's one of their busiest months, too, so I've been working full time at the expense of my own business. It feels like I've put art on the back burner again, and sometimes wonder if I've given up trying. I chose to prioritize this way, so I can't complain. Yet, I acknowledge that it's kind of weird.
I hope that work will chill out soon and I can go back to having a bit of my life back. In the meantime, the anxiety has simmered down to usual (Okay apart from some irrational health panicking that I'm trying so hard to reason).
I am LOVING having weekends off! I give myself a legitimate day off EVERY week so that I can enjoy the summer months with my husband, walking outdoors and observing creatures. I found this charming cactus, which I've been thinking about since I saw some living under SNOW a couple of years ago. Wish us luck. This cactus already bit me multiple times, so we're having a rough start. I dropped him while planting, though, so I guess we're even for now.
I fell victim to temptation this weekend at my favourite art supply store, as they were having an inventory clearance sale. I bought some sheets of coloured strathmore papers to make a way-too-fancy sketchbook for Patreon. Which I absolutely don't need! The paper sheets never come in the size I need, so it took a lot of extra effort tearing it into the size I envisioned. *groan*
But why waste the cut offs when I can fold them into mini sketchbooks?
I haven't blogged since may, and I've disappeared from social media entirely! What small amount of time I could scavenge went to youtube videos and patreon. June was flower month, and it so happens that I take a lot of pictures of flowers. Lots of photos means lots of references to study!
It's about time to vote for July's sketching theme. The vote is Birds Versus Patterns! Practice bird wings, or create interesting patterns to embellish your drawings? You decide.
Hello! I'm Melissa, and here you'll find some behind-the-scenes footage of an artful life. Won't you join me?